Purpose

I don't know about you but I've always felt like there was some sort of master plan for my life. I believe now that I understand part of that plan... that what I am being called to do in this phase of my life is to live my diseased life so that I might understand the suffering of others in a more intimate way.

For example, today I spoke with someone whose loved one was hospitalized because they stopped taking there medication. I didn't take my pills today. I know I need them, I know they are helpful, I don't want to be on them. I can empathize with this person. I can understand wanting to ignore all the logic because of ones gut desire to be done with it all.

Tomorrow I will give myself my 245th Kineret shot. If I live to be 70 I will have had to give myself 12,006 of these shots. People with diabetes understand the life the shot gives and the pain that it causes, the freedom it takes from you. Now I understand their walk just a little but more.

Maybe the secret to life's plan for us all is that there is no grand plan, no one huge thing we were put here to do. Perhaps our life's purpose is to do the best we can every day...and that's good enough.