Monday, April 7, 2014

Lost

I got my lab work back today. They take a circuitous route from near my home where the blood is drawn, to a local lab that processes the order, to JHU where the results are sent, back to me when my doctor's PA sends me the results. 

She has provided me with feedback the last two months (generally saying things look good considering...) and then asking for an update on how I am doing. 

I have tried to respond a few times but ultimately deleted the email. 

What should i say? That I am physically able, but emotionally a wreck. That I'm taking a new pancreatic enzyme but I can't trust the doctor or my own judgement enough to tell if it's working. That I rage out at my kids, but that testosterone treatment is not possible! 

What's there to say when the way I am is the best it's going to get and that's not good enough?

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