My weight is now down to 166 lbs. from a high of 254 lbs. in May. This much weight loss might have been a problem for someone who was skinny before but at 254 pounds I was clinically obese. In fact in the beginning I was happy to be losing weight.
However, after 8 months it has now become a problem. I think I only have 10 pounds left before I drop below my recommended BMI for my height and age.
I have spoken to the doctor about my continued weight loss and he just asked me if it had slowed, which it has. The re-reading of my MRI and CT scan by the specialist at JHU shows significant splenetic and pancreatic involvement of the ECD inflammation. This seems to me to indicate that my issues with fatty foods and starches may be a permanent issue.
At this point I am doing my best to increase my calories by eating every two hours but to be honest I am starting to hate eating. I am rarely "hungry" and have begun to see eating as a task.
I have spoken to the doctor about my continued weight loss and he just asked me if it had slowed, which it has. The re-reading of my MRI and CT scan by the specialist at JHU shows significant splenetic and pancreatic involvement of the ECD inflammation. This seems to me to indicate that my issues with fatty foods and starches may be a permanent issue.
At this point I am doing my best to increase my calories by eating every two hours but to be honest I am starting to hate eating. I am rarely "hungry" and have begun to see eating as a task.
This morning I tried to eat some pineapple, cantaloupe, strawberries, and eggbeaters (I can't eat regular eggs). I was painfully full when I got done. My wife said I was trying to eat to much at which point I had a mental break and spazed out. I don't know what to do...
I hate food! I hate eating! I am depressed!
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