Healing Prayer

Had a great visit today from the Shepherd's Singers. They are a cross between gospel choir/band/performers. The concert was the idea of a church member and I made the mistake of saying yes without properly considering what the consequences of such a long day would be for me. Luckily I have a great group of people at the church and they really stepped up. Because of them I was able to go home for two hours and get some rest.

In the future I need to do a better job of planning rest into long days. This isn't the only way that I have been trying to manage myself. In the last few months I have been doing better at not saying yes or no to anything right away. Instead I have been telling everyone that I need to think things through before answering. Interestingly, most people are very receptive to the slow contemplative model of leadership.

Once the concert was over we wrapped the evening up with a few members of the choir laying on hands and praying for healing (for me). I get the feeling thought that healing isn't in the cards for me. I feel like there is a larger purpose to my illness and that healing would prevent that larger purpose from being fulfilled. Not sure what that purpose is yet or that this line of thinking is even logical, but it is how I feel.

There is value to be found in suffering. I don't wish for it but I'm not going to lament if suffering is in the cards for me.