I bought my 2014 Monthly/Weekly Planner today (cue chorus of heavenly angels). I love it! There is something very satisfying with having the whole year mapped out in detail. This is no small task by the way because my calendar needs to have all NYC Department of Education Events, all First United Presbyterian Church of Queens Village Events, Weddings, and all Family Events. It took me over two hours just to move everything from last years calendar over.
The planner feels even more important to me this year. I think I find the illusion of control comforting. As if by writing it down I guarantee that I will be healthy and able to attend all these events. I mean I have committed to them right!
I was speaking with someone today who is struggling with their Erdheim-Chester Disease diagnosis and it occurred to me that what makes this disease hard to live with is that it destroys the illusion that we control our lives. Prior to ECD I would take my Monthly/Weekly Planner and map out my future with as much faith that the events written would happen as I am faithful that the sun will rise tomorrow.
Now...I am certain of nothing the future holds except my wife's love, the support of my family, and my trust is a really Big God. Have you ever noticed that letting go is one of the hardest thing to do?
The planner feels even more important to me this year. I think I find the illusion of control comforting. As if by writing it down I guarantee that I will be healthy and able to attend all these events. I mean I have committed to them right!
I was speaking with someone today who is struggling with their Erdheim-Chester Disease diagnosis and it occurred to me that what makes this disease hard to live with is that it destroys the illusion that we control our lives. Prior to ECD I would take my Monthly/Weekly Planner and map out my future with as much faith that the events written would happen as I am faithful that the sun will rise tomorrow.
Now...I am certain of nothing the future holds except my wife's love, the support of my family, and my trust is a really Big God. Have you ever noticed that letting go is one of the hardest thing to do?
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