I rarely write about my work as a teacher in much detail because I know that many of my co-workers and perhaps my boss read this Blog. My dad (a expert on old sayings) once told me you don't s**t where you eat and so with that in mind I have generally avoided the subject of teaching. However, as the year comes to an end I want to recap a few things and share some stress with the Blog so that I can let it go.
In June of last year I went to NYU for surgery, my boss and co-workers were incredibly supportive. I came back to teaching in September with my own room (my mobility was very limited at the time) and teaching a new subject (Geometry).
I would say it took me a good four months to really get going again. I have found the stress related to teaching this year to be incredibly high. First, I was teaching a new subject. Second, the adjustments needed to meet Danielson requirements took lots of time. Third, I found my self caught up in a cycle of negativity among the staff that really quashed my normally happy spirits.
As the year comes to an end I am still trying to figure out how to deal with the moodiness caused by my low testosterone levels. The thing is it has never been a problem in my classroom but the energy needed to keep it at bay all day has left me with little reserves to deal with workplace drama. This is an issue I haven't really brought up at work but nonetheless they have experienced it.
The funny thing is I feel bad that I have let my boss down and that I haven't been the leader I wanted to be this year, but I'm not sure (given the circumstances) I was capable of anything more this year.
Healing from an injury takes time. Healing from a broken life takes longer. My life was broken in 2013 and its only now that I'm beginning to see what the new Brad will look like.
In June of last year I went to NYU for surgery, my boss and co-workers were incredibly supportive. I came back to teaching in September with my own room (my mobility was very limited at the time) and teaching a new subject (Geometry).
I would say it took me a good four months to really get going again. I have found the stress related to teaching this year to be incredibly high. First, I was teaching a new subject. Second, the adjustments needed to meet Danielson requirements took lots of time. Third, I found my self caught up in a cycle of negativity among the staff that really quashed my normally happy spirits.
As the year comes to an end I am still trying to figure out how to deal with the moodiness caused by my low testosterone levels. The thing is it has never been a problem in my classroom but the energy needed to keep it at bay all day has left me with little reserves to deal with workplace drama. This is an issue I haven't really brought up at work but nonetheless they have experienced it.
The funny thing is I feel bad that I have let my boss down and that I haven't been the leader I wanted to be this year, but I'm not sure (given the circumstances) I was capable of anything more this year.
Healing from an injury takes time. Healing from a broken life takes longer. My life was broken in 2013 and its only now that I'm beginning to see what the new Brad will look like.
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