With the metastasis of ECD into my mouth has come the return of problems with food (probably indicating some sort of reaction in my pancreas as well). I feel like I'm losing ground in this area, returning to a point with food that I thought I had escaped in early 2014. The result is my diet is now more restricted then ever before (no beef, pork, dairy, refined carbohydrates, high fat foods, fried foods). Which leaves me with fruits, vegetables, ancient grains (no rice), fish, and poultry. I am controlling my weight loss more effectively this time because I know what to do, but I've still dropped over 40 pounds in the last two months.
The transition back to eating "clean" has meant I am now more food focused then ever before. The problem is that there are 5 other people in my house who also have to eat and are not nearly as motivated as I am about what they put into their bodies. Needles to say stuffed peppers, cauliflowers pancakes, vegetarian chili, and vegetables vegetables vegetables have been a hard sell. Initially DawnMarie and I split the cooking, she would do one weeks worth of shopping and cooking and I would do the next. However, I have decided to just take over the task on a permanent basis because I'm a nice guy like that.
[What really happened was I came home to find the dinner menu for the week posted on the wall and there was many meals listed that I couldn't eat like pasta, pizza, grilled cheese sandwiches, and crap like that for a large portion of the coming weeks meals. I flipped out! After a whole bunch of yelling about no one else thinking about what my needs were I came to the realization that this was a me issue.]
First, I was upset because I didn't feel like I would have things I could eat around during DawnMarie's week for cooking. I was worried because for me this was a food security issue. To help address this problem going forward I have started to cook up security meals that I can leave prepared in the fridge/freezer for the week (I'm eating 8-10 small meals a day so having food set ahead of time is a big help). For instance this week I cooked up a batch of Chicken Chili and made some Pulled Chicken Slaw so that I would always have food on hand.
Second, I realized that its not anyone else's job to take care of me. I need to take care of me! The fact is that if I want to control the food being prepared in our house i need to be more hands on with the cooking. Doing so has allowed me to relax a little and be more inclusive of some of the kids nutritional desires like homemade pizza and spaghetti pie.
Has taking over the cooking meant more time in the kitchen? Of course it has, but if DawnMarie could handle it for the last 9 years then why can't I? Funny thing was I asked DawnMarie if she felt guilty about my doing all the cooking and she just looked at me with one of those, hell no look, all husbands are familiar with and why should she feel guilty? I certainly didn't when I was eating her cooking for the last 9 years.
ECD hasn't broken me down to the point where I need to be cared for 24/7, not yet anyway. Until it does, I need to spend more time taking care of my own needs. The fact is that we could probably all benefit from spending a little more time taking care of ourselves.
The transition back to eating "clean" has meant I am now more food focused then ever before. The problem is that there are 5 other people in my house who also have to eat and are not nearly as motivated as I am about what they put into their bodies. Needles to say stuffed peppers, cauliflowers pancakes, vegetarian chili, and vegetables vegetables vegetables have been a hard sell. Initially DawnMarie and I split the cooking, she would do one weeks worth of shopping and cooking and I would do the next. However, I have decided to just take over the task on a permanent basis because I'm a nice guy like that.
[What really happened was I came home to find the dinner menu for the week posted on the wall and there was many meals listed that I couldn't eat like pasta, pizza, grilled cheese sandwiches, and crap like that for a large portion of the coming weeks meals. I flipped out! After a whole bunch of yelling about no one else thinking about what my needs were I came to the realization that this was a me issue.]
First, I was upset because I didn't feel like I would have things I could eat around during DawnMarie's week for cooking. I was worried because for me this was a food security issue. To help address this problem going forward I have started to cook up security meals that I can leave prepared in the fridge/freezer for the week (I'm eating 8-10 small meals a day so having food set ahead of time is a big help). For instance this week I cooked up a batch of Chicken Chili and made some Pulled Chicken Slaw so that I would always have food on hand.
Second, I realized that its not anyone else's job to take care of me. I need to take care of me! The fact is that if I want to control the food being prepared in our house i need to be more hands on with the cooking. Doing so has allowed me to relax a little and be more inclusive of some of the kids nutritional desires like homemade pizza and spaghetti pie.
Has taking over the cooking meant more time in the kitchen? Of course it has, but if DawnMarie could handle it for the last 9 years then why can't I? Funny thing was I asked DawnMarie if she felt guilty about my doing all the cooking and she just looked at me with one of those, hell no look, all husbands are familiar with and why should she feel guilty? I certainly didn't when I was eating her cooking for the last 9 years.
ECD hasn't broken me down to the point where I need to be cared for 24/7, not yet anyway. Until it does, I need to spend more time taking care of my own needs. The fact is that we could probably all benefit from spending a little more time taking care of ourselves.
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